01/29/2013
Gigi on Tracy: "I Don't Know if She Really is That Happy"
I felt out of place when Tracy was trying on wedding dresses. I know Tracy's friends, but the girls who were there that day were really close to Tracy—much closer to her than I was. Plus, the biggest thing for me when I try on dresses one day will be to have my mom there. Knowing that she's doing all of this without including hers made me uncomfortable.
One thing I am not, however, is jealous, even though she seems to think I am. I'm definitely not jealous whatsoever of what she has. To put the icing on the cake, I do feel that her intentions for having me in her bridal party weren't good and that the only reason she wanted me there when she tried on dresses was to rub it in my face. I was the one in the relationship all these years, and then all of the sudden she meets a guy, gets engaged right away and wants to plan a wedding? I feel like she was digging the knife in with a smile on her face. She knew what she was doing.
It all felt so put on. Why is she rushing to do all this when everyone's not on board with it? What for? What's the point? I just don't get it.
I don't know if she really is that happy. She's been trying to pretend that everything is okay, but I know that if I didn't have my family involved in my wedding, I'd be devastated. I wouldn't be getting married. I'd be trying to do everything in my power to make them like my fiancé before trying on dresses.
