02/04/2013
Claws Come Out! Gigi Digs In After Fight with Tracy
I was nervous about talking to Tracy. It felt good that Carmine supported me about it, though, because we come from an Italian background where family comes first. You need their blessing, especially in marriage.
There are so many people who have family members who don't get along with their spouse, and that's just a no-no for me. My family is everything to me and to have my parents' blessing is number one.
I didn't want to hurt anybody's feelings, but I know how Tracy is. When she doesn't like something that's being told to her, she flips out. She gets really nasty. I didn't want it to turn into drama, which is why I had avoided the conversation for a while—it just takes too much time out of your life. The truth hurts, and some people can't understand it. They get very defensive, and in this case, that's what Tracy did.
For me to say, "I could see you saying something like that," it's because I could! I've seen the way she operated in the past. I called her out on it, and then she just walked out. She didn't even say, "No, G, I wouldn't do that." Like, are you serious? It didn't make sense to me. When she acted like that, I realized she's not as close a friend as I thought she was. At least try and talk to me! Running out like that just proved that she was guilty.
I have a really big heart, and that's my problem: I never want to see anybody hurt or hurt anybody, but I felt that she needed to know the truth. Nobody else tells her, and I couldn't play along with this game anymore. I was brutally honest with her—and that hurts sometimes—but for her to cry with no tears coming out? How phony! She wasn't even crying. Anyone can make that crying noise, but there were no emotions behind it.
I honestly wasn't even comfortable being in her bridal party, especially because I think she's rushing everything. She's thinking for right now, not what's going to happen down the line. Why is there a rush? Try to make things better with your family first, then get married. Just take it slow. The family thing is really important to me.
She's just putting on a show for everybody. She posts all this stuff online like she lives this beautiful life, but she's doing that because there's a part missing. She's deeply miserable if she has to try so hard to prove that she's so happy. She's masking everything and covering up the real problem. I wouldn't be so firm about it, but I've seen her and her mother. She had a great relationship with her mother and to see that she is no longer close with her hurts me because her mother is a beautiful woman. I want Tracy to wake up. Instead of being defensive, I wish she would soak it up and learn from it.
Enough time has passed and people need to know the truth. Enough phoniness! Being real and truthful gets you further. Whatever I say, I can stand behind it because it's the truth. You can't hide from the truth, that's for sure.
